When I was pregnant, I knew I wanted a special lullaby to sing to Sloan when I put her to bed. When I was young, my parents played classical music for me after they said goodnight and it was such a nice ritual. I decided on The Beatles' 'Golden Slumbers.' It's always moved me and the lyrics were perfect:
Fill your eyes
Smiles await you when you rise
Sleep pretty darling
Do not cry
And I will sing a lullaby.
I mean, come on.
But after about a week after Sloan's birth, I realized it wasn't going to work. The problem is, beyond having a not-so-great singing voice to begin with, I also have an impressively small range. As in, I couldn't come close to hitting the high notes, right at the best part of the song. I'd really lean into it, but that meant essentially squawking out the song loudly to a newborn that was on the precipice of sleep. So after coming to terms with the fact that I was actually unable to sing the song I'd selected, I switched it up.
I decided on James Taylor's 'You Can Close Your Eyes.' It was also the song that my dad and I danced to at my wedding, so it holds an extra special meaning. It's sweet and simple and I love feeling Sloan's little body relax into mine as she drifts to sleep while I sing these lyrics to her:
Well the sun is slowly sinking down
The moon is surely rising
This old world must still be spinning 'round
And I still love you
So close your eyes
You can close your eyes it's alright
I don't know no love song
I can't sing the blues anymore
But I can sing this song
You can sing this song when I'm gone